at every level, at every step and at every phase in life, you'll have to ask yourself -- 'where am i? what am i doing? where am i going?', and maybe you'll get your answer soon enough. but that's only if you have clear focus, and you know exactly what you're doing ... chasing the 'bigger picture' as they say. if you don't get your answer, then maybe you'll have to look for it, but look for it you should because only then will you come to realise what is going on around you.

also, know what the people in your life mean to you, and what you mean to them. you might be giving priority to some who don't want it, and some who might not deserve it. that way, you're losing out on people who - if given priority - can do much more for you. you lose on every front ... so, which is better? to stop for a moment and think whats happening, or to keep moving forward, and picking whatever comes your way?

if i turn my back im defenceless, but to go blindly seems senseless

why do we help people ...? or atleast try to ...? do we feel sympathy towards them? or do we think we can set things right for them? do we need their permission to try and help them? or just, when we see that something is not right, we take a step forward and try to set it right? what if your friend tells you not to try and help? what do you make of it... does it mean that you screw up way too often to be able to set things right? or they are better off without your interference? what do you say when your friend (or someone who you think is your friend) tells you to step back, and not interfere in their life? do you still care for them, and lower your feelings for them? or do you just leave, because obviously they are content enough and can handle themselves to want you there...?

explain to me what i'm feeling, because i sure don't know...